silent

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 16:59:19 GMT

add my new lj bitchez

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FUCK CUNTZ BITCHEZ

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 05:10:37 GMT

I've been working so much lately. Franks had me on the schedule 7 days a week and two double shifts a week. So yeah I haven't had that much me time and what not. Um ok..... Last night i hungout with Steph and Jay and we went to the mall and hungout with diff people. Some of the mall rats i loved it i had fun. Then and Britt hungout at the mall tonight again i had so much fun. I love that nigga to death. Jordan got me a cute beanie from Ny and i look so cute in it lmao. i love my friends so much right now. Steph Britt and i havent seen gab since 4th cause shes sick. :[ feel better baby.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 20:22:24 GMT

This is me feeling lonely and shitty again wanting a boyfriend more than ever. fuck.

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 02:03:01 GMT

so i want to find a guy with his own mind and then date him not another weirdo annoying guy that is influenced eaisily by others opinions and shit

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 04:46:36 GMT

sometimes im scared to go to sleep ever think about not waking up? well thats not what im scared of i dont care if i wake up or not im scared of wasting my life away even more the average person lives about 80-90 years divide that in half since you sleep half your life and thats how many years that person was alive eating, smiling, showering, working, sitting, laughing, being mad, yelling, being embarassed etc. sometimes i never want to go to sleep whats the point.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 22:10:34 GMT

if you add your own thoughts multiply your friends thoughts divide the worlds thoughts subtract people you hate's thoughts you might get alot less rational thinking than you thought

i just drew the weirdest picture i cant stop staring at it though ............. makes ya THINK

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 03:56:09 GMT

When you listen to music, DON'T just listen to it. LISTEN to it. feel it. listen to the lyrics see if they mean anything to you and the ones that do, you decide. you decide what they mean. not the artist that created the song and lyrics. you put in your own personal meaning for each line. it will make you cry. it will get deep. next time you listen to a song LISTEN TO IT. listen to the drums and the instruments listen to all the notes and the tone of their voice. its so fucking beautiful.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 03:53:23 GMT

Everyone's unhappy
Everyone's ashamed
Well we all just got caught looking
At somebody else's page
Well nothing ever went
Quite exactly as we planned
Our ideas held no water
But we used them like a damn

Of course everyone goes crazy
Over such and such and such
We made ourselves a pillar
We just used it as a crutch
We were suddenly uncertain
At least I'm pretty sure I am
Well we didn't need the water
But we just built that go god damn

Was it ever worth it?
Was there all that much to gain?
Well we knew we missed the boat
And we'd already missed the plane
We didn't read the invite
We just dance at our wake
All our favorites were playing
So we could shake, shake, shake, shake, shake

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 02:04:54 GMT

thursday noah came over it was fun we watched movies and chilled and we ate at dennys.
friday i went to gab n stephs with jordan and we went in the pool and stuff then we went to the mall with chill.
we met up with britts and costi and chilled at the mall then everyone came over my house. joey, chris knight and anthony naples too. we had fun i loved the anthonywich britt steph gab and jordan slept over and me gab and britt smoked then got paranoid as fuck and steph and jordan were freaking us out. saturday i went to the fucking talent farm with jess and costi and it was the lamest piece of shit ive ever had to witness the good bands dropped so only 3 nu-metal bands played and there was a bunch of jugallos there lmao it was funny to watch them all try to mosh lmao funny. then costi and naples came over after and we played.... alot if was fun. and today has been the worst day in the world i woke up feelin like shit and i had to go to work. i cut my finger really deep and its been stinging all day. i was feeling sick and like shit @ work, i have pink eye or some fucking eye infection and ugh today just sucked. i've smoked every single day since wednesday fuck lol

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 16:28:43 GMT

You lose your mind if you lose control.
It makes you feel ashamed for the hearts you stole.
And now, your own heart's scared of an attack,
Cause you can't give them back.
You're stressing me out when you prove me wrong,
You're wearing me out cause I've slept so long.

Throw it all away,
I threw it all
And I threw it all away,
And the best part is not knowing just what I threw away.
I threw it all away.

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 16:17:10 GMT

In a flash a heart is slain
You have to ask in all the pain
Was your heart too soft
Was your lovin faint
Was your kiss to weak
Were your eyes too tired

fuck i did it again oh noooooooooooo

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:04:55 GMT

jellyfish

they catch my eye everytime i see a picture

i love them i want one of my own a beautiful one

this is my tattoo idea to get first is a jellyfish on my hip somewhere or my side then later on add an angler fish by it and i want a sea urchin too but all around eachother and i want alot of blue behind them

or i was thinking a bunch of tiny baby ones like these pictures or just a few

amazing

this is the tattoo i want right now

but im still deciding.

i like this one as a tattoo but it seems a little complicated and a tiny bit scene lol

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:00:02 GMT

i want him, i want his soul, his voice, his tattoos, all his jewelry, his hair, his face, his eyes, i want him i want all of him so much. i've never idolized someone like this before. but everything about him just amazes me the more i listen to his voice carefully in each and every one of his songs. when he sings in spanish and in different languages. i want him to sing to me and hold me. i want him so bad.

give me!

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 03:02:41 GMT

hes mine you cant have him hes perfect and im marrying him no matter what

btw alpha dog was sad as fuck i cried. and since its a true story it made me so fuckin mad. im just glad no one got away with their shit.

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 02:37:14 GMT

weed makes you smarter.

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 06:34:38 GMT

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 06:22:28 GMT

i went into deeper thought today about animals. i was watching animal planet for a few hours. after hs im gonna go into studying animals they interest me so much im not sure what kind or type or even insects, marine, wild, domestic etc idk they alll interest me. but i was spending time with penny tonight also. randomly friday night at levis i might have said something about penny being reincarnated .. i was stating all my thoughts i thought no one was listening but monica heard me and she said she felt that way too it was crazy i thought i was the only one who thought that about penny or animals in general. i started talking to her about how penny was a woman or maybe a baby but she died a complete brutal death maybe her husband, father, mother, someone close to her killed her i think she was murdered but shes mad at the world now but i know that when shes happy or sweet to me its because shes happy she got a second chance at life she was so sweet tonight i was laying in monicas bed reading and she kept scratching me really hard i let her until i pet her shes so cute she talks back and when you say something mean to her she knows what you're saying and understands and reacts to it. yesterday michael came over for a bit he played with deisel for a while they way he used to ... like rough and it made deisel so happy if dogs could smile or laugh it was deisel yesterday he has so much respect for michael he doesnt growl bark or try to bite michael ever at all when michael plays so rough with him. michael left and the rest of the night deisel was completely depressed. he wouldnt eat, didnt react to my voice, layed in the same spot for hours with his eyes open staring at nothing, wouldnt look at me, didnt want to go for a walk, so i layed with him for a few hours and pet him gently on the floor and held him i would do anything for that dog and to see him like that made me cry. i dont want to see him like that ever again. my theory on him is that he was a nice guy probably older like in his 50s and he died a peaceful or fair death aka not murdered or anything. just died. he doesnt have any hate balled up inside of him and he just wants to be loved. i can sit there for hours and talk to him about my life and he sits by me and listens he understands me so much hes perfect and hes a young little puppy baby boy and hes so happy to be young again and living the fuck out of his life even if hes a dog. on animal planet today i saw the most extreme parasites and one thing stood out and made me really think. fly's - they inject egg(s) into an ant. the egg becomes a maggot obviously which eats its way up to the brain. it totally eats the brain out of the ants head so it can have a little home. sounds like a great place to live btw. inside of somethings head. so the and becomes "a walking zombie" which creeps me the fuck out. now i dont know which ants are ants and which are fake ass maggot creeps. and i like ants so it made me sad. the ants head eventually falls off where the newly formed fly breaks it self out. i found this really interesting and i was eating while they showed it but for some reason it didnt bother me at all. and this madee me want to study and learn more about flies and where else they lay their eggs. they could probably pull off laying one in someones eye. not dead. you know. i want to study that stuff become a scientist maybe or what ever those people are called that are into that. thennnn i was watching something on baby tigers (which are the cutest things ever and i want five) and it made me need to become a vet or just be one of the people that takes care of them, feeds them milk, holds them, plays with them etc. im so interested in them after watching all that about them. im a sucker for lil baby animals. all in all im very happy that i know what i want to study and go into after highschool i feel accomplished.

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 14:48:23 GMT

i want a guy to fall in love with. someone i love everything about and want to be with 24/7. someone that when i see him the butterflies are in my stomach for every second we hangout. i want to love him and not be mean or rip his heart apart because i'm bored. i want to worship the ground he walks on and fall in love with his scent, smile, and every word that comes out of his mouth. i want him to fall in love with me and never want anyone else. i want an endless relationship that never gets dull and always sparkles. i want to grow old with him and marry just him. i want him to fall in love with me all over again every time he see's me. i want it to hurt but feel ten times better for every second of pain.

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Thu, 03 Aug 2006 23:34:57 GMT